It was the dog that died / a land of ice cream 10-09-26

Counting the Days

Every now and then I remember that you don’t have to keep watching your recommended and you can instead explore all kinds of weird and wonderful material on the Youtube. That said, I think these both came off my recommended.

I’m a dickhead and so I like Tom Stoppard. That is to say, I like annoying plays. That is to say, I like stuff an English Literature student would’ve heard of.

Back in the 1700s, Oliver Goldsmith wrote a poem, thus:

An Elegy On The Death Of A Mad Dog

Good people all, of every sort,
Give ear unto my song;
And if you find it wondrous short,
It cannot hold you long.

In Islington there was a man
Of whom the world might say,
That still a godly race he ran—
Whene’er he went to pray.

A kind and gentle heart he had,
To comfort friends and foes;
The naked every day he clad—
When he put on his clothes.

And in that town a dog was found,
As many dogs there be,
Both mongrel, puppy, whelp, and hound,
And curs of low degree.

This dog and man at first were friends;
But when a pique began,
The dog, to gain some private ends,
Went mad, and bit the man.

Around from all the neighbouring streets
The wond’ring neighbours ran,
And swore the dog had lost its wits
To bite so good a man.

The wound it seemed both sore and sad
To every Christian eye;
And while they swore the dog was mad,
They swore the man would die.

But soon a wonder came to light
That showed the rogues they lied,—
The man recovered of the bite,
The dog it was that died!

End

I pulled that text from All Poetry, and I’m just saying that because their site looked pretty. It’s an old poem, so no-one owes anyone any copyright or whatever.

I found the poem because I watched a short film “It was the dog that died” based on a Tom Stoppard play. Slight plot spoilers, it’s about a double agent who’s done so many double and triple and quadruple bluffs that he no longer knows who’s side he’s on. Being a principled man, he therefore tries to do the only thing he reasonably can do in that situation, but an animal is unfortunately harmed in the process.

I like spies, I like Tom Stoppard, I’m starting to like Alan Bates as an actor, so all the ingredients are right. And I’m big into the 70s because I think it was the last time Britain had an almost coherent national identity, so I love looking back on it with my rose-tinted glasses and eating up bucketfuls of nostalgia that I – by rights – shouldn’t feel, since I wasn’t born then. Doesn’t nostalgia always hit harder when you weren’t actually there at the time?

Anyway, watching that film led me to “A Land of Ice Cream“, which feels like another play but might technically be an evening drama for the telly. It was written by Welshman Alun Richards, who I should probably now find out more about. And again, I love it for the peculiar nostalgia and the sense of impending doom. Basically, a successful Welsh Labour politician gets the train and finds some old friends. Slowly – or not so slowly – we realise he’s long since betrayed all the values he pretended to hold as a young politician and is now a fucking scumbag. But it’s the other characters that make this an interesting premise or observation. The people he casts aside.

In the background I’m brewing some writing about British culture – not because I’m some patriotic nationalist, but because we don’t seem to have any these days. People wheel out Grime as new British music culture, which it is, but it’s also not enough and has already sold out. What else have we got? And racism doesn’t count.

Sixteen

Counting the Days, Prose

We’re starting up again. I feel like Phil Winter in Alice in the Cities, lost in the detritus of meaningless travel, deliberately accidentally swamped by advertising. Bright screens, short videos, long ads, everything blurring, deleting apps and accounts only to reinstall them again days later, once again broken seemingly from lack of wine. That’s me, not Winter.

So, I need to be back. I don’t believe in writers’  block. Related to this really useful piece of advice: don’t tell yourself you need to do X important thing. Tell yourself you want to do it. Writers’ block is a castle built on a swamp, it has no clear or meaningful basis and instead a miasma stinks about it: believability. It’s “well documented” says Wikipedia. We all talk about it. Any series comedy or drama that mentions writing does a bit on it. The assumption therefore arrives that it’s a thing. I even found myself trying to capitalise it earlier. Nope. It’s a nebulous gathering of different factors that together result in little or no writing – or quality writing – being produced, or published. It’s life, really. Things happen to you that you haven’t processed. You need time to process them in whatever way.

Phil Winter (played by Rüdiger Vogler) feels disconnected from the world around him to the point at which he’s doubting meaning or existence itself. This of course makes it harder for him to write about something as broad as “the American landscape”. He processes the disconnection by being given sole care of a stranger’s nine-year old daughter for a couple weeks. Well, he is given sole care of the child and processes by deciding to care. The microcosm – so to speak – of looking after an abandoned child helps him to resolve something in the macrocosm of his own sense of existence. Or puts his worries far enough on the back burner so that, in his distraction, he starts writing again. Enough of him is engaged in helping or being with this person that he returns to the real world and stops sponging, returns from his own sea of personal doubt. He spends what little he has on someone else, earns money from nothing for someone else, finds most of his entertainment in and provides regular entertainment to someone else. And he gets to go back home to Germany where he’s more comfortable.

Look, while I’ve just talked about writer’s block really being a complex web of personal factors, there is one uniting theme. Disconnection. It’s easy to get disconnected as a writer, or any kind of artist. It’s easy to fall into the trap of living in your own mental world, because that’s almost what you’re being paid to do. Or it’s what you enjoy. Both. Even if you’re writing about reality, it’s super out-there to be watching reality. Most of us just experience the real. If you’re experiencing it and watching yourself do that at the same time – that’s weird. The whole observational act in art is strange, and so is making up a false world. It’s stepping out of our basic bodily boundaries and woah are we not entirely comfortable with that.

Words and pictures and even a lot of our sounds and smells come to represent other things, mention other things, spool tapes in your head-cinema of stuff that isn’t immediately occurring in front of or around your body. Every word, every mark, is a small disembodiment. Yeah. And how you feel about that disembodiment determines whether you get…disconnected. Either you feel like you’re connected with something else or many other things – you observe common ground. Or you feel like you’re outside of everything and so temporarily lost, floating in the spaces between metaphor and literal description, having seen things ignored by the rest of the world.

Instead of the brutalist, Stalinist, anonymous excuse of a writer’s block, let’s just say disconnection shall we? Especially if this is writers on writers. We can find so many ways of describing disconnection. Oh, you did a Flammarion? Right. Someone cut up your heart? Damn. Is that a thousand-yard stare I spy in those peepers? …You get the idea.

I’ve been out for a while and this time it’s just a story showing someone who seems familiar – that’s brought me back. Nothing too grand. I got the good feels for Phil Winter and so – having earlier felt alone in my particular form of suffering – now knowing that I have at least one notional comrade has dropped the scales from my eyes. For a while anyhow. I just couldn’t handle how Wim Wenders in the interviews and then the blurbs I’ve been reading all referred to Phil as having writers’ block. I’m like no! he even fucking says he’s disconnected and he literally starts writing again as he develops a caring relationship with Alice. Do. Not. Be. Silly. Let’s use our words, the useful words, it’s what they’re for.

Ugh. Well, the blog must go on. See you again tomorrow I guess…? Maybe let’s expand on the disembodiment of words. I like the way that sounds.